I excelled at the celebration of life. I would lather myself in mirth on many occasions even when the price meant mindlessly poisoning my body in ways that might later fuck with my emotions. Having a good time was worth it. I don’t regret a thing. Every experience has brought me to where I am now, a bit older (shit, that was fast), but much more conscious of how thoughts, words, and deeds affect my world. I admired my impressive way to live carefree even if it seemed irresponsible. Sometimes I miss that feral intensity but my idea of fun has certainly changed.
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Perspectives have shifted and perceptions widened with an extended curiosity of this beloved universe full of fascinating gems, inspiring people, intelligent plants, ancient wisdom, and magnificent abundance. I’m more devoted to the magical vibrations of life and less interested in what others think. I recognize spirit in everything. I view intimacy as sacred with less desire for superficiality. I’m fed by authentic ways to communicate, express, and create, impressed more with transparency than phony masks of identity.
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I’ve had major life transitions, challenges, elation, tragedies, joy, upset, and awe, as most of us have. I have faith in the flow, increased compassion, and a few more responsibilities. I resonate with energy more and less with bullshit. I often want to toss myself into the unknown instead of stagnating in too much comfort.
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I read more and party less. But I still honor the times I cared about nothing but the thrill of the moment regardless of consequences. I trust the power of inner guidance and I now listen to my body with an awareness of how incredible we’re designed to feel, how we’re masters of our lives with the freedom to choose what we allow to affect us and what we feel called to support.
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I’m certain my heart doesn’t lie. I thought I knew that 10 years ago but at times I let my mind (or numbness of) convince me otherwise. I was in such a vastly different space physically and very much spiritually. I’m in awe of how much can happen throughout our lives. I’m so grateful to everyone who shared a part with me in this cosmic play. What a remarkable blessing it is to live, learn, blossom, and share.
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