I will never forget how fearless I felt in the middle of the Amazon. I never thought I’d experience such safety somewhere so savage, impenetrable and raw!
Sure fear can keep us safe but often it feeds us false narratives and keeps us stuck. It distorts reality and weakens confidence, growth and self worth. A deceiving lil bugger!
Venomous snakes, huge spiders, itchy mystery bites… Nothing was as scary as the stories in my own mind.
Learning from an indigenous tribe in the Amazon had been on my bucket list. I had the rare opportunity to do just that.
I felt a wild mix of emotion—fear, excitement and anticipation as I prepared for the transformative journey; a departure far from my comfort zone.
My ego was so anxious. I called my sis for support before my departure. She reminded me that nervousness and excitement are essentially the same depending on perspective. Do our minds interpret an experience as fear or joy? What if we embraced bumps with enthusiasm instead of contraction?
I was trying to train my brain to be amused rather than resistant since worry is an insult to our life force. Yay to opportunities for growth!
Without modern conveniences, I relied on the wisdom of medicinal plants and the guidance of Shipibo maestros for healing and introspection.
Embracing the challenges of the jungle (humidity, creepy crawlies and the predators living in my own mind that needed purging)…
I trusted in the Spirit of Nature, my guides, the plants and my higher self.
Swaying under a starry expanse, surrounded by thick jungle, lured by fireflies, insect and bird songs, bathing in icaros sang within the maloca, absorbing the indescribable magic of this precious life…
Vines of oxygen-rich intelligent plants wrapped around me to help purge doubt, heartache and ancestral pain. I couldn’t believe what came to the surface.
After struggling to heal from trauma, I expected to re-live unpleasant moments. But instead, the Medicina allowed me to perceive my silly reality from a much higher perspective. That was empowering in itself!
I crept outside to merge with the night. Senses heightened to feel the jaguar breathe in the bushes, inviting me to connect with her. I became wildly more empowered and protected from all harm.
Fucking fearless felt fantastic!!
My feet were rooted on the jungle floor but my body moved with every playful, powerful spirit in and around me.
No electricity, no planes flying overhead. No chemicals, cosmetics, salt or sugar. Just pure, sacred Nature.
Humbled and inflated with all I ever loved, I bowed to the Earth and with an open heart, I cried.
The jungle can eat you alive. But She gave me life.
Me encanta la selva.
Gracias Amazon! Gracias Pachamama! Gracias Shipibo! Gracias Ayayhuasca. Gracias my own bravery. Gracias healing and transformation. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
”The happiest you’ve ever been won’t be the happiest you’ll ever be.”
All is possible when we believe it. Life is too short not to follow our passions. Go for it. I believe in you!
